November 2011
Better to each other
I don’t know what has happened between us, but for all I know, our fuses don’t run as long. Our patience is quick to run out, doesn’t necessarily mean with each other, but with anything stressful, we take it upon one another. It’s not healthy, but the fact that the love is still remaining, is what matters the most. I may lose sight of what this may be, but I will always...
Deception between what is real.
I don’t want to be over dramatic and say that we don’t love each other like we used too, but there is some lack of communication that once declared our love for one another. There is a lot of unspoken thoughts that fill the air when we’re together. When we are apart, we survive off of text messages every hour or more. I’m not asking for more because that is what the future...
All of the sudden it’s like where did the passion go. It’s not here anymore, I’m not quite sure what remains. There is this falsehood, that dwells among us. We were either too far in over our heads, or we just had a misconception of what this is.
It's your fault.
If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t think the way that I do. I wouldn’t worry about the shit that I worry about. I wouldn’t have this constant reminder of living alone if it weren’t for you. I spend so much time by myself that I even started worrying that I’d go crazy like you.
No, it’s my fault for letting what happened to you affect me this much. I could...
Elephant in the room
I feel so awkward at times. My mood is almost never the same anymore. I wish I would smile more like I used too. Half of the time my smiles are forced. When I’m with certain folks, I talk too much and I can clearly see I’m the elephant in the room. Then there are those days where I’m the quietest one with no opinion. Both annoy me equally. I can’t seem to find my common...
Horrible News
I don’t know what it is but lately, it just seems that everything is off, nothing seems right and nothing feels right. I was in my chemistry class when my mom decided to text me some news. A week prior to this she had informed that she is getting a colonoscopy to check for any problems on her insides. She let me know later that day that the doctors didn’t find any polyps, which could...
October 2011
I've missed you Tumblr
Life’s good though. Thanks for asking.
September 2011
August 2011
In the end, all you really have is yourself.
I've lost it.
Obviously, I’m going through some kind of mental breakdown. I’m not quite sure what it is, but either way I just don’t feel right. Something inside me is just telling me that things aren’t right and they need to change. I’m not looking for pity and I’m not self loathing. I don’t hate myself and I don’t hate my life. I know I’m normally more...
Anonymous asked: Why no roomie this year?
First day, second year.
Second time around and you would assume that I would know what to expect from this upcoming year. For one thing, I’m living completely on my own this time. No roommate, just me and my one bedroom apartment and my dog Chester. He’s incredibly good company, even if he just sleeps besides you half the time. I’m pretty excited for what this year has to offer, but I’m not...
3 tags
When 15 year old girls have bigger boobs than me.
bonethugsandmelody:
How the fuck?
Stop growing & put that shit away.
Almost Wrote You a Love Song - Big Sean
Stomach Flu
I had the stomach flu this past Tuesday, or what seemed like food poisoning really. I think I’ve thrown up more that day than I have when I’m extremely drunk lol. Anyways, it makes me so furious with myself because we’ve been going out to eat to my favorite foods in hope that I’ll be able to eat something. Instead I waste practically almost everything. I’m hoping that...
Live it up as much as you can now. Or you’ll regret it later.
I'm not a shy person
So then I don’t understand why I keep so quiet all of the time. There is only a certain few who I can truly act myself around. I’m normally cool, calm and collected and I spectate a lot which orders me to keep quiet so people don’t get the wrong impression of me. I’m not immature but I miss those days where I can really act out. I’ve gathered the things that make me,...
Life's calling
It saddens me sometimes when I ponder to myself and question what I’m doing. I’m not saying this to sound pathetic because I’m not but when I truly think about it, what are my hobbies, what do I do daily that screams this is me? I’m not very good at many things that gives me an opportunity to have a hobby or something that I enjoy. I’ve lost myself along the way...
Fried Rice
So, here I am sitting on my bed with my pup laying next to me. This has to be the longest I’ve been on my computer since before the Summer started. After being an idiot the other day and deleting almost everything on my computer, including my over 2,000 songs, I’ve spent the past three hours trying to download new ones. I was tired of the ugly music on my Itunes anyways. I slept at my...
