JennifeReally

If space and time is all that you require, then that’s all you shall receive. I won’t invest in anything that won’t return the effort. 

That should be trying to make some kind of effort, is no where to be found. Unresolved issues that go unnoticed, will eventually just blossom into something much more. You face the problem right away, and deal with it. No time should be needed. If you truly want something, you’d do anything to fight for it. Clearly, feelings aren’t mutual. I’m torn between what I want and what I deserve. The only person I should be with right now trying to fix what is broken, doesn’t want to fix it. This is stupid, so stupid. It’s frustrating and it’s something I just want to be over with. 

I know what I want, and I know what I deserve, then when given a second though, I’m only aware of what I want to deserve. My expectations may be high, and sometimes aren’t met, and that is where my frustation derives from. It’s not solely your fault. It’s my fault for having this imagination that fails me. This idea of what things should be like, and then the false hopes that comes when that idea doesn’t become reality. I should either accept how it is now, attempt to change it, or just walk away completely. I just want to be considered. I want to feel loved, adored and wanted. I don’t need attention 24/7, I don’t need affection every second of the day, but some kind of sign that I’m being appreciated and my presence is needed, it’d be okay. 

Things happen, people change, and time continues. The choices you make in life, were chosen for a reason. Whether the outcome was thought out, or simply ignored. You deal with the consequences or rewards afterwards. Whether people’s feelings were put into consideration or not, if its yourself that is only be thought of, then don’t waste your time. Realize what you do, understand why you do it, and then ask yourself if you can better yourself. You either learn from it, or dwell on what brings you down, and stay there.